You and I

Every now and then, that one person walks into your life and when you look at that person, you never realize what a huge role they may be playing in making you the person you are.

But I knew! I knew the first time we spoke to each other.

Okay! I'm just being dramatic for effect! I didn't know anything. I can't even remember where we met for the first time or how we got talking. But friendships are like that; they work just like attraction. Sometimes you just know and sometimes you don't. Sometimes you can claim a 'forever' and sometimes you just go with the flow.

We went with the flow, You and I. You were the shreiky woman who always wanted to study, I was the loud girl who kept thinking of new ways to avoid education. You were the prim, proper, 'Ive never been kicked out of class' kind, I was the boisterous 'never been in class' kind and its precisely because of these differences that we became the awesome friends that we are today.




 
We've known each other 11 years now. That's over an effing decade. We've known each other through smiles, giggles, pranks, boys, jerks, heartbreaks, late night gossips, insane photo clicking sessions, experimental cooking, baking, studies, trips, adventures, fears, broken relations, shopping, merciless teasing, sleepovers, bitching, dramas, lost phones and so much more...

11 years later, I'm glad we're friends... Best Friends. I'm glad I can count you as one among 'my people'. You're that calming element in my life - the one who doesn't judge, the one who always stands by me, the one who has that amazing ability to understand why I make the decisions I've made. When I'm off making plans to conquer the world, there you are - that person sitting silently in the background - to hear my stories and to support me when I realise that maybe I should've planned it better.

You're the realist in our friendship, the one with the silent dreams and hopes, the one who has immeasurable strength hidden deep inside, the one who is so amazingly innocent at 27!!! (God knows, I can trip on that forever).

I would say stay the same but the whole saintliness gives me a complex so yeah... you know go be your amazing self or whatever :D

Samantha Dsouza, I love you!

Ambition - You Bitch!

It stomps all over you with the politeness of King Kong, takes you to all new highs, leaves you breathless and dizzy, makes you tremble, makes you smile, makes you sob, makes you repent, makes you forgive, gives you endless power and snatches away your dignity.

LIFE is probably the only legal drug around!

I was probably ten when I was first asked to write that essay which made its appearance through all my school years under the names of "My ambition in life" to "My goal in Life" to "What I would like to accomplish in life". As I moved from the age of ten to twenty, I began with wanting to be a pilot to wanting to become a teacher to even wanting to become a rock-star. Then there was the stereotypical doctor to a flight attendant to an actor. Its been fourteen long years since when I was first asked that question and my answer is amazingly as unsure as it was back then.

I envy those who know what they want out of life. They're clear, they work for it and some even achieve it. Creative writing happened to me. I didn't plan it and I never pushed for it. It just happened the way one falls in love. A million explanations couldn't possibly justify a why.

I now love what I do and I do what I love. I'm still as confused today when someone asks me "so what's your ambition in life?" I wonder if its professional to say that my ambition is to be as happy ten years down the line as I am today. I wonder if its okay to say that my ambition is to be as whimsical and free spirited and love life the way I did when I was ten. I wonder if its okay to say that my ambition is to remain happy!

It's okay to not know what you want out of life, not have an ambition - so long as you are rightly justifying the lack of knowledge; so long as you are continuously exploring, searching and digging deep for that answer.

Ambition is that quest which doesn't limit you to one goal but empowers you to try a million. Success comes to those without regrets, to those willing to experiment. Life has only one condition attached to it - that you live it. HOW YOU WISH TO DO IT IS WHAT DEFINES YOU!