Random Swirls

Ive always prided myself on being a good writer and I hate it when i see someone better (that happens a lot) but it's a constant quest to outdo myself and everyone around. I don't think of myself as highly competitive, just a tiny bit and quite fickle. Not a very nice thing to say but this was something recently pointed out to me and I couldn't help but agree.

Being fickle isn't necessarily a bad thing. You get to play around with a million ideas in your head. Before you catch one you're on to the next. Some call it creative genius when one can't hold on to something for long. Then theres the downside being that one can't hold on to something for long. But who is anyone to decide and pass judjement? We have theory for everything in psychology - an exciting one being the Looking Glass Theory. I forget who it's by (Freud i think.. I'm scared of being blasphemous by penning down the incorrect name) but anyway, put simply, it states that every human reacts to another in a way that that the former thinks the latter percieves him. For eg: If Rohan percieves me as intelligent i tend to think of myself as intelligent and behave accordingly around him.

So that brings me back to the main topic.. What if Rohan percieves me as fickle? Does that make me fickle or do I just pretend to be fickle around him. If A,B,C,D...Z percieve me as cruel, happy, witty, selfish, loving....what does that make me or you?

Who am I or you? Which one? Could it be that we are all of the above or maybe just a tiny bit more of one and a lot of the other? Could it be that we're none of them? Could it be that we're all actually the same? The questions are endless and the answers even more so!!